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so undeniably your's; as long as i'm losing it so completely [April 26, 2012 | 11:27 PM] 90% Friends-Only. as an exchange to read mine,it's not too much for me to read your's. (: don't take it to heart if I don't add you back,it's nothing personal really. say wha? add me first before you ask to be added alternatively, Follow Me I tweet like a twitterbird on crack.

we don't need anything, or anyone [November 26, 2009 | 02:09 AM] I don't always need Julius like I do now, what with the immense workload, the tutors disbelief that I did not attend school because of my 'mother of all eye sores' (but honestly, if the doctor INITIATED to give me 2 kinds of anti-stress pills and sleeping pills, does it not mean a thing to anybody?), and finally, the internship fiasco. I am very tired of fighting for what I want. I am so tired of the fight. I know I could just let it go and let the school decide. I could try apply again after I graduate, but, I am neither here nor there now because there is apparent hope that I could be where I wanna be, yet.. the wait.. is.. insanely.. torturing. I need to tell and talk to Julius about all of these. Not anybody else. I just want to have my white flag up and he comes over and asks if I'm okay, and I most probably would be. I just want to lay there in the middle of a bustling city, uncaring to the judging eyes, and he would pick me up and tell me 'let's go'. I'm in dire need of some.. I don't know, it's not love or care that I want. It's warmth, a kind of warmth that you get out of the city, cottage-like warmth. The warmth you get drinking a hot bowl of homemade clam chowder in the winter, in a little cottage up the hills. The kind of warmth that tells you it's okay to fail, it's okay to breakdown, it's okay to let go and give up when you're tired. Just the thought of laying in bed with Julius, with the curtains down in the afternoons, doing absolutely nothing at all, makes me want to cry. It is so simple, we've done it far too many times before, but I can't even lay there in peace anymore because I have been constantly checking my phone for new email updates hoping it might be the internship company. I need to stop caring. I need to let it go. I have.. never been this pathetic even in my Sec 4 year. Sure I've fainted far too many times, but at least I wasn't.. like now. I sat down with my family doctor, and he found a few problems with my health, and so he asked if I were stressed. I said, 'yeah, how'd you know?' and he laughed and said (almost like a mock, almost) 'you look damn shagged out', he told me to stay away from anything with milk solids (chocolates, Milo, etc) because the acid levels in my body is fucked up and anything with milk solids would make me have diarrhoea, I kept quiet for a while and then I said, 'but I take chocolates to destress'. He stared at me for a while, then he mumbled under his breath, something about giving me blah blah blah and then explained that those are anti-stress pills, and another to help me sleep better. And so as I am very freaked out by the very fact that I have indeed reached a level by which a doctor has to initiate to prescribe me anti-stress pills, I should re-evaluate the amount of attention I give to the people and things in my life. Julius only texted me at 11.45pm today, and that was the only text I got for the entire day, something about not being able to talk on the phone, night training, busy day and sergeants walking around. I needed more than that; I could have 1. Thrown a hissy fit and text him 'But I really need you. Do you not care? :( (insert infinite amounts of sad faces)' 2. Be understanding, bear with it, be alone. I don't think I'm ready to cry and whine about the fact that Julius can't be here when I need him the most, it would instantaneously make me seem like I'm an unreasonable bitch with the wit and maturity of a 16-year-old. I mean, I really, really need him right here, right now, but its times like these that reality slaps you in the face and yells at you that you can't just have anybody listen to your rants just because you want to, and it slaps you hard enough that your face turns to your right where your right thumb is, your right thumb would then ask you to 'suck on it' and shut the fuck up. The medicine is taking effect and I'm all drowsy now. I pray for a good night's rest, and for the internship person to holler me soon.

Life in Stills from Blackberry [November 24, 2009 | 08:15 PM] I have waaaaay too many backdated pictures from my phone, so here it is (it's not the complete set, so go to my Facebook):

Life #2 [November 24, 2009 | 07:23 PM] *** I think I look positively Ah Lian but I look like I'm 17 so who gives a shit. Anyway, please go get the Liese hair cocktail thing! My hair looks damn good after applying ittttt!! But I don't use it for school, so don't judge me you hoes. LOL The food fucking sucks. It was so bad I'm still pissed talking bout it. It fucking sucks. *** Had an awesome day with V in the day, and Kellyn in the evening.. I love them both very much. I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY NEW SUNHAT!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE TAKE ME OUT TO PICNICS!!!!!!! Or I'll call my dad and make him bring me to the turf club. HAHAHAHA I love it.

This is how Life has been... [November 24, 2009 | 06:45 PM] It was one of the cheapest fine dining I've ever had, but I loved the service. The waiters were very confident, and they were friendly, not fearful. And they really, really made my night.. 'These are complimentary chillers, we didn't add the tequila in because I believe your lady isn't legal yet? She's not 18 yet, right?' SSSSSSSSSCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL I wanted to slap the waiter and do the anime-ish 'HOHOHO' and tell him, 'I'm 20 already laaaaaah hOHOHOHO~' But I didn't. Like as if that wasn't enough, he asked if we wanted complimentary desserts after our last course dessert, after we declined, he said 'But our boss said we have to give complimentary desserts to anybody sweet looking'. I swear Julius saw my face burst and all I wanted to do was to do a crazy laugh and slap that waiter's back non-stop. I am really a sucker for sweet words, and I can't really take them well. On the food, some were mediocre but I can't complain. Some were really, really good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like the Master's Selection starter, i.e., the amuse bouche. Followed by my SUPER SUPER fresh and good sashimi, and julius' soft shell crab, and the last bomb, my foie gras chawanmushi. Our entrees were unfortunately, mediocre. Yabyab, and after about 4 months of wait, my dad finally passed me my Tarina Tarantino earrings I bought 5 months back. So pretty!!!!! Because we don't live together, some of my purchases get sent to his apartment at woodlands and I gotta wait mother long before I get them cus of conflicting schedules. Boo ya!! But they're so, so, so pretty!!! My Lanvin flats are at his place, and I really hope I needn't wait till next year. That would have been damn bleak because I keep fighting my will to get another pair of super bleak rubis, why waste the damned money when I have a pair at woodlands right?!?!?! UGH.

Just a thought [November 12, 2009 | 08:10 PM] I was thinking bout how and why Kpop is taking over the world, I mean, there was a time when it was all about Jpop and then taiwan F4 brought back Cpop, and suddenly those who don't even watch korean dramas are into Kpop? I don't know if there's a link, but it reminded me of what Clement said during Advert lecture about 'saying it enough, and the people would get it' when I thought bout Wonder Girls' 'Nobody'. Think bout the lyrics. Then linking it back to Super Junior's Sorry Sorry. Then 2PM's Again & Again (which, by the way, is my current ear porn). Repeat the lyrics with some upbeat music, and voila! Chart-topping music. It's almost like hypnosis. And then again, which sort of media doesn't mind fuck? Just sayin'.

Growing up still scares me [October 29, 2009 | 12:20 PM] Chanced upon this, and though I don't like this boy, his voice captured me There's something really sad in the melody, his voice, and the lyrics. And then I watched on and read the lyrics once more and realized what it was all about -- his dad passed on when he was about 18-20. This is so amazing because though I don't know him, I feel his pain in this self-composed song. And it's this pain that captured my heart. I listened to this for 2 days already, and I never fail to tear. As much as growing up scares me, I need to grow up faster to care more for my parents. This pains me so much I don't know what to say.

Comatose [October 23, 2009 | 09:05 AM] Bought a ton of pretty things but so lazy to take pictures, so.. view them via twitter (tho I gotta admit the pictures are super mega low quality) I've a few more pictures but UGH so lazy! G'bye!

falling slowly [October 16, 2009 | 07:55 PM] Because twitter has a bleak word limit, (and also cus I've locked it up too,you wanna read you add me asswipes) I'd still marry any guy that serenades Falling Slowly on the guitar or piano to me. And I don't even like guys who can play the guitar so that's really saying a lot bout how much I love the song. (: I finally found the answer to the ideal proposal: Corny date (usual dining at some nice place,tea,wine,book store) that ends up at some park (botanics, wcp, mt faber, NO ECP) at bout 7-8pm, with soft orange street lights, and the serenading begins (playing the guitar while on one knee,no less). I freaking die!! In exchange of that,I'd learn to play canon in d on the piano for the wedding. (I don't know how to play the piano ok,unless you want Er Hu or Zhong Ruan lol) So I'd be playing it on the piano in my wedding dress, and the groom would walk in with the bouquet and ask for my hand And I'd nonchalantly give him my hand and we'd wed. And after everything ends,all of us would take a group picture at the cathedral and we'd all say 'sex' instead of 'cheese' and have our picture taken. Ace.

Heaven's Loft [October 12, 2009 | 03:33 PM] Okay guys, I dunno how I could forget including this set of pictures when it's on the same day as the korean bbq. lol This was at Heaven's Loft where I had the bestttttttttt molten chocolate lava cake! Those I've tried have normal cakes, but this.. The cake layer's a little thin, soft, yet with a crisp. I didn't have to cut all the way down for the chocolate to ooze out!! Endless flow of chocolate goodness! Impossible to look pretty in this kind of weather these days.. My makeup melted minutes after having them on. /: BLAH Go try (the cake) okay!! Off to Regent for desserts!! :D

we live through time [October 12, 2009 | 03:59 AM] Visited the Dior gallery with V after brunch at Cedele last week, Model on bottom left looks like Devon Aoki! For Julius Had my *FAVOURITE* macaroni & guo ties while Julius tried something new (and regretted) I really think it's awesome how their concept took a 180 degree change I used to come here all the time after school while I was still in secondary school.. Still awesome. Waited for Julius at Jurong Point while he booked out. We tried out our favourite pasta place's second outlet at JP. The Taka one is still the best though they transferred one of Taka's chef over (he used to be the only chef when Ambush just started!) I had my usual, Cod fish with rustico sauce while Julius had the wild salmon. And we had the rosti too!! It's not exceptionally good nor bad, I just love rosti. Try the one at Taka please!!! The JP one's quite sucky.. They mixed the sauce up for you while the one at Taka slabs sauce ON TOP of the pasta and let you mix it yourself. Blah!! Next day,we had Burger Shack for brunch! (That's me in naked face, hair pulled back. Lazy to the max..) The burgers are awesome, I think. Cus I'm not really sure if ALL burgers taste as good as the one I had since I don't take pork or beef. My Grilled Chicken burger looks the grossest, but also the best. It was damn good and cheap!!!!! While Julius' okonomiyaki burger sucked. I don't really think they know what an Okonomiyaki is anyway.. GO TRY THE GRILLED CHICKEN BURGER!! This was 2 days ago, we visited the restaurant we used to date at before we got together (cept it wasn't the real location, the one we went to closed down ): and we found this outlet nearby!). We ordered the same usual stuff we used to order.. And it didn't taste the same, I prefer the older outlet! :( We used to meet and have supper at this restaurant, and no matter how tired I was, I'd still meet Julius at 10pm - 12am just for supper. I can still remember how happy I was... When I was feeling all upset cus he went to meet this other person, he called me right after he sent her home to meet me for dinner at 10pm though he wasn't even hungry. His excuse was that he was in the vicinity, but I got to know that he met me cus he knew I'd be upset. I was so, so, happy then. Yet he didn't want to be with me! GUESS WHO HAS THE LAST LAUGH NOW EH?? Stupid cat. (I recounted the WHOLE story for him again, and I love the dying look on his face whenever I rub it in his face.. He hates how I look so smug whenever I ask him, 'So who's yo boss now, meowmeow?' HAHA) And then we played L4D. We saw these 2 other people in another map and got really puzzled because their nicks are 'Meow' and 'meowprincess' too. I mean, WE are the original Meow and Meowprincess.. Why the fuck are there other people with the same nicks? Computer error? And even if it was a couple thing, why the fuck did the girl call herself Meowprincess when I'M Meowprincess?? So we entered the map and killed the imposters with the help of the zombies. Ace. The Epic-est BBQ Buffet, ever in my life. The pictures look odd because my camera can't capture ALL the plates on one table. There were SO much the waiter had to stack the dishes on top of one another, and had no sense to stop serving. It just kept coming IT WAS MADNESS!!! For the first time, FIRST TIME, Julius and I didn't know where to start despite being damn hungry. MADNESS Okok, lemme re-illustrate how full the table was. It was SO full that I had to put my clean soup bowl on my bag, and julius had to put some dishes on his seat. HAHAHAHAHA DAMN PATHETIC Before we went for the buffet, I came up with a strategy with Julius, that we'd only start eating when ALL the dishes arrive because experience tells us that most places serve the food DAMN slowly cus they want us to get full quicker. So the plan backfired because there was no time to wait at all. EVERYTHING just came at once and we were overwhelmed. LOL And yknow how most buffets serve bleak food and call it a day? Every fucking thing was nice. Julius was nodding his head in approval the whole time and it made me happy. haha he's damn hard to please sometimes.. So after the buffet, we sat there and felt satisfied. We even had this useless conversation of how it's nice to be this full and not feel like dying everytime we go to a buffet, and how it's so painful to be so full till we can't even sit/walk/talk. Then we ordered 2 bowls of dessert and fruits. And then we decided to order another 2 bowls and fruits. Midway through the last 2 bowls, we looked at one another and laughed because after all that talk, the dying feeling is back. We left the place feeling like we're gonna give birth to food babies. It was horrid and funny at the same time. Then we went furniture shopping at harvey norman. I liked it. It's nice to be.. old, I think. Anyway, I wandered off alone and came back to him with an electric fly swat He looked at me and backed off saying 'Don't ah.. Don't ah.. I swear ah.. Public ah Don't ah' LOL!!!!!!!!! I LAUGHED AND KEPT ADVANCING then he told me how he got hit by this when his friend was hitting a fly and it hurt. I got really amused so I scare him by swinging it and his face was CLASSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then I got closer to him and I whacked him on his arm and he jumped HAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAA!!!!! FUCK FUNNY THEN I KEPT LAUGHING AND LAUGHING THEN I TOLD HIM IT HAS NO BATTERIES HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA His face was CLASSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  So we went Cold Storage and he spotted these gross furry GIANT spiders and threw them at me which made me scream a little. Those were really gross and scary but he got a kick out of irritating me with the legs so I gathered ALL my garang-ness/courage/what-have-you, and bent ALL the legs of the spider inwards into small fur balls. (FUCKING GROSS TO THE TOUCH!!) Then Julius stood there like some dejected kid cus I ruined his fun,but laughed after that after he realised how ridiculous I made the spider look. From a menace to some retarded ball of fur. This was what I did to the spider. Notice I bent ALL then Julius pulled it away leaving 2 untouched. It was hilarious!!!!! Also, (this is damn corny but) don't mess with me. No matter how afraid I may be, I'd kill it. Even my biggest fear of ghosts won't get me down. (A story for another day)

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